butterfly garden

i used to think i was incapable of falling for someone

my emotions had gone numb i assumed

like how your tongue feels after burning it on coffee

i used to think my emotions were in a box, floating down a river

never to be seen again

then i met you

and my mind felt colorful and bright

like when i was a child and i could spend my days playing in the sun

i feel like i have a butterfly garden in my stomach

my mind doing backflips

my heart growing two sizes larger

i didn’t know it was possible to feel again

to show any emotion other than hurt

and it’s a nice change

it’s a terrifying change, nonetheless

to let someone into your heart and let them take over

to trust that they won't make you feel numb again

and normally i would run from this

i would run from the first sign of somebody caring

but this time i don't want to

it's been a while since i've felt this overwhelming amount of joy

i missed it