lost cause

i wish i knew what it felt like

to be loved by someone again

it’s been so long since i’ve felt someone hold my hand

and mean it when they tell me they love me

i’ve searched everywhere

and all i’ve found is lost causes

empty promises

and heartbreak

it hurts seeing my friends find their soulmates

and see them kiss their lovers

while my lips kiss another pill to fix the sadness

i try so hard to be someone everyone likes

but at the same time, i don’t care if anyone does

i try so hard to just be someone

i try so hard to just exist

i’m starting to think i’m the reason i haven’t found love yet

i’m the reason every boy i’m with is just another notch in my belt

if i was lovable

someone would have loved me by now

maybe i’m the one that’s broken

maybe i’m unloveable

maybe i’m always the problem

maybe i’m the lost cause